| Not posted for 78 weeks apparently! |
[Dec. 11th, 2007|09:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 120 Liberty Works | ] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Cream-Take it back | ] |
Lol! I just got a very friendly email from live journal telling me that I hadn't written anything for over a year! I can't believe time has gone that fast...its really wierd reading back over bits of this because I had forgotten so much, its brought back loads of old memories! Well um obviously no point in trying to write everything that has happened but perhaps I will try and start up again. Might make it a new years resolution! haha! |
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| Summer Sun! |
[Jun. 5th, 2006|09:03 am] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Radio Paradise | ] |
I've done it again! I'm officially crap at updating this thing! I'm such a muppet...oh well! So yeah well lets try and remember what the hell has been going on for like the past 4months! I cant believe it has been that long...right well um I shall just have to do this as I remeber things. I went off to Spain with Sez for a week in the easter holidays. We went to Granada and had an amazing week. I learnt so much and fell in love with Granada so I think that we are going to go back in the summer at sum point. Oh yeah and me and Nath have decided to go off travelling so hopefully that will still happen. If not I'm going to end up going round Europe on my own I think cos I really wanna go but Nath wants to go sumwhere more exciting...Australia could be cool cos I know so many people out there. But what else...Went shooting for a weekend at easter as well. That was fun but shooting at 900yards was like shooting through candy floss but me and Bruce still managed to get high scores so that was cool. Since then not much has really been going on. 170days left at college has turned into 21 so that makes it soooo much easier. Just got 19papers to work my way through and I should be fine :S lol! On the love life front not much is happeing their either. Thought I'd gone to heaven in easter as I was going out with Tatty for a month but then he cheated on me and is now going out with the girl he cheated on me with! But never mind life is too short to hold grudges so have just pushed everything that I shouldnt feel for him to the back of my mind and have gone back to being mates which is wicked cos we do have such a good laugh! :) Um but yeah other than that things are all quite nice and peaceful. Cant wait for shooting in the summer, and also just having time to spend hanging out with everyone. This sat was the first day that I have been out for agesssss but it was so wicked to see everyone and the bands at the 2pigs had me bopping away all night! :) Well I better get on and do some work...well actually I'm on the gap year website cos UCAS just sent me and email but yeah! lol!
Shall update sooner....I hope! |
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| 133 days to go! :D |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|08:58 am] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Sia - Breathe Me | ] |
Woop! I have finished all my exams and have started to get the dreaded terrible results back! lol! I dont really care though at the moment that I have not done that well, and there are a lot of teachers who dont actually seem to be that angry with me which is nice. I think that they have probably accepted the fact that I would have been out drinking with my mates in half term instead of slaving over a huge pile of books! lol! Oh well. So yeah well I just cant believe it is Saturday tomorrow! Can sumone please tell me where the week has gone, cos the last thing I remember it was Sunday night and I was dreading coming back to college and having exams to do on monday! lol! And omg! General Studies yesterday was such a giggle! I just got to do like three creative wrting questions, one about advertising, propaganda and another on a statement for a youth organization. It was an awesomely fun exam so it will be interesting to see what the results are like. But yeah this weekends plans are to play in Jig tomorrow night which sadly means that I will miss 3SM play at the 2 pigs but meh at least I get to get pissed at college and then run down to town and see them all. Have a feeling that I am staying in Glos with Tom on Saturday but shhh you dont know that :P lol!
Oh and thank you to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ev1ldonut for your comment! I cant reply cos the college computers like to block wierd random sites and ther is no way that I can get on to any of your pages! lol! So yeah it was a killer having four in one day and you can tell by my marks that I had done no work but meh! So hope your all good and stuff :)
And Fillerbunny, if your reading this can you please leave me a comment so I know which Lj is yours? Thanks!
Well im bursting for the loo so I'm gonna scoot and then run off up to chapel. Meh! Byeeeee! |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2006|06:30 am] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Echo and the Bunnymen - In the Margins | ] |
Omg! I have had the most killer of a day with four mocks! Still have one left to go tomorrow afternoon but it is only general studies so i m not really that worried about it. I must post in here everything that happened over half term becuase it was a bit of a busy week...lol! Well I'm quite happy now I have food in my tummy and a slightly tidy room knowing that i dont have any work to do really....well still have to finish my history coursework which is slightly overdue by about 3 weeks but i'm not panicing, i will be if i have not finished it my saturday. its tomorrow afternoon's project if i dont get an offer to meet up with someone in town, but i'm not sure what's going on. Anywyas im going to grab an early night cos im bush whacked. Actually...might go read. night night :) |
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| Lalalala |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|03:03 pm] |
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| | jubilant | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | 6 o'clock on a tube stop - A | ] |
Well its all been kinda of quiet to be honest. I got let out of shooting early yesterday so I trundled off into town and I saw Alex X3 lol! and then I went up to AJ's for a quick huggle and natter. Was cool to catch up with him. Then I Al walked me back up to college cos I couldnt see him ar prep break last night cos we were supposed to be having a house singing reharsal, but it got cancelled because Checky and Lucy have done like no work on the song or anything, tis just so badly organized. Would be brill if I was in charge! lol! Oh well. So yeah and last night was just in the wierdest most giggly mood ever. Ended up sitting in nic's room for like an hour and a half laughing my head off at nothing much! lol! Was entertaining though. And today, well I got off ccf so I'm about to walk and meet Andy cos I wanna hug, and then I am skiving Big band cos I just cant be bothered. Dont think they'll notice *rolls eyes* I mean its not like the bassist is important or anything lol! No other news really. Still waiting on Cardiff and Manx for uni! Grrrr reply you silly people! lol! Oh and I have booked my holiday with Sez! Woop! week in spain, drinking, smoking, and lerning! What more could you want hehe! Well I really need to finish my history so toodles! |
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| Weekend over :( |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|08:05 am] |
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| | calm | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Pacific Palisades - Ash | ] |
Blah the weekends over already! Cant believe its monday already! I have my mock spanish oral today :( Have done like no work for it. Went to the two pigs on saturday night. I ran into town after shooting and went into MCDP and saw Jake and he was with this girl called Emily *nudge nudge* lol! And then we left when it shut and I saw Sheepy outside so ran over and gave him a hug. We wondered off to go get food but Jake wanted a subway so I went off on my rant, then had a bite of Jake's and fell in love with this sandwich! lol! So they took me to the other one, bought me one, and now have photographic evidense! Shocking I know! lol! Al gave me like this really cute pendant which was so sweet of him but I dont want him thinking that he has to buy me stuff so I told him not to. But bless him! He's so cute. :D Yesterday was quite cool, I had a JIG rehearsal at like 10.30 so I stayed at college and got up early, then went to lunch, saw Toase and had a chat which was cool then just came back to house, did some work, watched tv and then Al came at like 5.45 and we went down to Sanford park and just had a chat and stuff. Fingers crossed I dont fuck up before Valentines day :S lol! Well all I can do is hope that I dont do anything wrong. Bless. Kate hit the nail on the head last night when I was telling her about him on the phone when she said he sounded like a NICE guy, cos thats exactly what he is! lol! It makes a change. Anyways I better go do some work for my oral. think I'm supposed to be going back to history lessons today but screw that! Cant use it as an excuse that I thought they didnt start till Tuesday! |
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| NOT AGAIN! : |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|11:48 am] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | The mountain range in my living room - the early november | ] |
I dont believe it! Yet again I have managed to leave it for something like 8 weeks since updating! lol! I did make it one of my new years resolutions to try and write in here more often but it just never happens. am going to make a concious effort though seeing as college has pretty much blocked any decent website now so this is going to be my haven from Navahoo e-mail! lol! Well looking back the xmas holidays have come and gone. I had a lush time actually. Didnt go anywhere and had a quiet one for xmas and then worked with Katie-Mai in Twenty Four Seven for new year which was interesting seeing as it was my first night behnind a bar..EVER! lol! But it was wicked fun and I managed to make £80 so that was some nice spening money. I had stated seeing Spud just before the end of term, (not sure if I wrote andything about that) but then after asking me out on about the 9th of Dec, after this he decided to ignore me and just not speak to me or anything. So that ended on the 13th of Jan after not speaking to him for about three weeks. Was cool whilst it lasted though and am still wanting to be mates with him but he's just not interested so I cant really do anything about it. Was a bit awkward when I saw him in the 2 pigs for the first time but it was ok. It did bring me and AJ a lot closer together though and we now sort of look on each other as brother and sister which is just the coolest thing ever. I love that flat, tis my little safe haven away from everyone :) So I'm back at college now and am already in week 4! I cant believe it! Where the hell is time going? I have 154 days to go till I leave school which is just like the best feeling ever but the shittest one at the same time. I have plans slowly forming for next year. Might be getting a flat (fingers crossed) near the restoration with a guy called Joe who is safe as fook! lol! Then I have had 2 offers and 2 rejections from uni for 2007. Glasgow have offered me BBB and Newcastle AAB so at the moment its looking more likey its going to be Glasgow but I dont really mind where I end up to be honest because I just really want to go and just be on my own for a bit. Completely independent from over protective parents! So yeah other than that things have just been plodding along really nicely recently. I dont know what is wrong with them, but I have had a couple of guys who have been interested in me. Unfortunatly for them a couple were guys who I love dearly but only in a platonic way, and also I was finding it absolutle hell to get that silly willy out of my brain. It was a bit of a meh point in other areas as well. Things with the girls were a bit bumpy. I think that we have come out the other end now but I just felt like I really wasn't fitting in and it was just horrid. However as a surprise to me though I was able to resist reaching for the knife. I havent cut since like some time in December :) Doing well for 2006! But I have finally found a guy I think who may actually be interested in me for more than just getting his leg over. Have been seeing him for a week tomorrow and its going well. Al's been up to see me every night at college which is something I never expected to happen seeing as I only get like 45mins. It hardly seems worth it but yeah its awesome. Have been smiling so much recently that my cheeks were aching the other day. And Mr.Cox even noticed in my tutorial. I dont know what it is but there is just something super specaial about Al that I just want to spend so much more time with him. Still kinda in shock that he hasnt sort of run off or told me he is a mad axe murder yet or something though lol! Well....what else? I cant really think of much to be honest but just everything is flowing in the right direction at the moment so its all lush :) Sure something'll put a spanner in the works sooner or later though :P lol! |
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| Coldness is on its way! |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|12:51 pm] |
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Yuchhhh! I feel so rotten today. I have such a sore throat and a headache and am just meh. I just hope that I last out till tomorrow cos then I dont care if I cant sing anymore but I have been to so many sodding choir practises that I really dont want to not have to sing tonight becuse it would really piss me off! Grrrrr! But yeah I was lucky enough to get pizza in the house last night because well Ashmead seniors won the house pots and we had won the badminton pots as well so that was kinda cool. But last night I was just not tired so I sat in the common room till 12 and then got into bed but couldnt sleep. I think I'm just really excited about the prospect of having a month off! lol! Nothing else really has been goin on. Gave Tom his xmas pressie last night which he really liked so that was cool. Lil is not here today cos she is on an Art History trip along with Badger, Nic and Jean so the house is realy quiet today. I think she is still in a bad mood with me though which sucks because I have no idea what I have done! I realised last night that I have been really good and not cut for ages. I think that it has been like before half term which is good. About a month :) But still get the urge now and again though. It might get a bit harder now I have found a new Jack who i'm worrying about a bit. Got nothing to do for 15mins now till lunch so gonna go search the web. Got the joy of Big Band and then CCf later which should be good cos Santa is coming to bring us chocolate! :) |
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| I have to agree with Frank... |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|04:22 pm] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
I'm feeling very anti-xmas at the moment. I have already been through two lots of turkey and stuffing and it isn't even the 7th of December! lol! I'm also really bummed becuase I have a detention for turning up 3 minutes late to a spanish lesson. I mean how lame is that. Actually I have to go to that in a minute so this isn't gonna be a long one. Had a good weekend though. I was at college till 4.30 because I had a badminton match. Me and Freya lost all our games, but we did win overall so that was ok. Then I went down into town and saw Spud briefly as he was sitting at home with his bro listening to Bill Hicks, and his bro is rather intimedating! lol! So then I went and chilled out in town with the crew which was awesome because I hadnt seen Big Dave or Sam for ages! Then we all trunddled of to the two pigs as seems to be routine now on a saturday. Lil was trollied as per usual and spent her evening shouting abuse at the bands and mauling Luke's arm! lol! And then Ellie got with mr. Christian who I think she may be going out with but I'm not 100% sure. And I was with Spud so I cant really complain! lol! Then on Sunday me and Lil went off to the clothes show at the NEC in Brum which was wicked fun. I spent like £50 but I still had a really good day and the show was awesome. Sexy men in boots and kilts! YUM! Since then though things have been going down hill. Had the xmas dinner last night which was a bit poo really. I was looking forward to it and really shouldnt have been because nothing interesting happened and social was shocking afterwards. The highlight of my night was tlking to Andy at the bar! lol! And thats saying somethin! Nah he's an awesome guy and we get on well so that was cool. Then he rubbed it in my face that he was going off to spoons afterwards whilst I was going to be locked back up again! lol! Well I better scoot otherwise I'll be in more poo. Only 3 days to go......:D |
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| Library boredom |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|12:48 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Shhhh I'm in a library! | ] |
Its been a bit wierd how many other people seem to still be around on here that I haven't spoken to for ages. I feel kinda bad really! lol! Well hope that anyone who is reading this is good. I had a bit of a poo day yesterday, had a barny with lil over something stupid again and then that put me in a bum mood for a trek with my bass from college to town to get one of the wires soldered. But the guy did only charge me £3 and he gave it a full spring clean which was cool. Then actually thought that I better do some chrimbo shopping so bout a couple of pressies for people. Then met up with Bunny in MCDP for a cup of coffee and lots of huggles which is exactly what I needed. Until Art walked through the door and I remember that I had had a nightmare about him dying. That was kind of wierd! Am dead happy that James has realised that a women needs her chocolate though and has brought in proper chocci bars to the shop! Made my day! Well it did till I went and saw Spud :) Things are going well I think actually. I mean he's just like really good company and its good to have some one that you can have a laugh with and stuff. He managed to put a smile back on my face yesterday anyways. And then completly out of the blue he walked me back to college which I wasnt expecting ever to happen! lol! Its kinda lame being stuck here at the moment but it is only like 9 days till the end of term so I cant really complain that much. Still feeling a bit coldy. I just cant shift this cough and it is really bugging me now cos I wanna be able to sing well in the carol service on sunday rather than just kind of growling in the background! lol! Well I better go and do something constructive like.......I'm sure I'll think of something! lol! |
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| Mega update necessary! |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|02:37 pm] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Kat's Cd | ] |
OMG! I cant believe how long it has been since I have written in here! And just quite how much has actually happened. I dont really know where to start to be honest. The summer was like the best thing ever with Bisley being mint, and Guernesey was an awesome relax week, and then just chilling out in the beer gardens every day with the crew. Made so many amazing new friends as well. Ellie Whitton has like joined me and Lil and then Jess and Sophie as well we have got a lot closer with. And now I'm 18 (11 days ago!) I have been able to stay in thw 2 pigs past 10 which has been like the coolest but the wierdest thing. I still cant believe that I am old enough to drink legally. Its kinda depressing. I'm sure that there is a shed load that I could write about everything that has been going on but I really have to do my english coursework so I guess I'm gonna try write stuff up more as it happens....well at least within a month of things happening! hehe! |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|09:34 pm] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
Omg! I got up at 2.45pm today bcause everyone forgot to wake me up and I had stayed up till 3.45am sorting out my photo albums! lol! I'm off to Sheffield tomorrow for three days to see family and to have a look at the uni so it should be quite cool I hope. Then I'm back and hopefully I'm going to go and stay at Kate's house and Ed might come up as well which would be wicked to see him. Not much else has happened. Went to town yesterday and saw Katie Mai, George, Jarv, AJ, Martin, and Lara and I managed to get my mum sumhing for her bday which was good. I dont get it I'm nakered but have slept so much! lol! |
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| Mega Update |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|01:54 am] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Silence! | ] |
well it sure has been a long time since I wrote in here! I dont know where to start! I think I'm just going to have to do things as I remember them.
Scotland was amazing! I saw nellie in newcastle and loved the uni, then rua in glasgow and I met this guy called Gareth on the last night who, after we had been to a random persons house for a party I ended up going back to his halls and passed out! He was very not me! Quite normal but he was Irish so it was all ok! One lady at the party asked us how long we had been going out and I said that we had met about 2 hours earlier! lol! So that was a great trip and I found out that I really didnt like Edinburgh uni so it was a useful trip. Then came the exams I think. They went ok but am still waiting for the results. Starting to feel very worried that I should have done a lot more work! Never mind hey can always do retakes :P Ok so I didnt become a prefect and Lucy O'Neill is head of house next year! *groan* but never mind! I really dont care about college anymore I'm so motivated about university. I dont really know what else has happened. The day we broke up I dyed my hair purple....oh yes and the house party! lol! Lil introduced me to Tom Lawro who is a local guy who she met on Faceparty and he lives in cleeve. He was really cool and has a band so I had the idea of having a house party with Tom's band. So they set up outside in the garden and we had just over £100 worth of food and alchol. Anyway it was me and Lil as th girls (well I wanted there to be a good ratio!) Then Ginger, Holty, George, Jack Taylor, then Tom and the rest of the bad who were Jarv, Swede, Jon, and Gaz. So it was all really cool. I got stoned the minute mum left then had fun till she came back and said that there had been complaints from the neighbours threatening to fone the police unless the music stopped. Luckily it was the bands last song so it was all cool. Anyways a lot of drinking was done and then mum came home about 11 and said she wanted to sleep at home. I was not happy about the plan and said ok though cos she said to act as if she wasnt there,......i think we took that a bit too literally! Anyways it was me, lil, jarv, and tom who ended up stayin oh and george, and me and jarv got cosy and i think i was the one that slept most cos I was so comfy. Anyways about 5 mum came into the study and had a hissy fit at us all! It was hell and she came down at 8 to wake us all up to clear up the mess. She went bananas! lol! It was so bad we were all in shock cos all it was was a bit of mess and she was acting as if sumone had been sick all over the persian rug or had broken and antique vase! but we're all still laughing about it now so thats cool. I actually pulled Tom that night but we have said it was a drunken friend thing. Anyway after that the next week was spent chilling out in MCDP and listening to George and Tom make up songs about the party sumthing like "then came the tyrant shouting out below, How dare you sit in my house, my house, my house!" lol! It was so funny. Oh and I went to Mantra with Lil which was wicked and she met up with Mikee and I think they became closer after that like more like bf and gf yet neither have them have actully said they're going out. I think it is one of the wierdest relationships I know! Um and I met a cool guy called AJ who knew Colin who me and lil know ish from MCDP and he played a set that was amazing. It was wicked and he has such a good voice it was awesome. Then I went off to Bisley the next day. The first week was quite restrained cos it was schools week but it was still good fun even though I didnt shoot amazingly well and neither did the rest of the team it was still good and they made me Captain which was nice! Coxy had spoken me at the end of last term and told me he might make Fordy captain but said at Bisley he was just tired and being silly. I have broken a tradition of 143 years though which is quite impressive, the first full female captain, ever! I saw Nellie but i didnt get to spend much time with him cos we were both so busy, he was helping out his school who ended up coming 3rd in the Ashburton. Then came the second week which was full of fun, and frolics, and drinking, and sun! It was just wicked but I think sum things are best left unsaid.....dont you? lol! Yeah and I came back yesterday morning at about 4.45am from Guernsey which was such a nice relaxing week it was amazing cos I did nothing except eat, sleep, and read harry potter and watch tv. Was fantastic. And I think that is us up to date. With the few details I left out from May to the 1st of August the one that I did forget that needs mentioninng is that Lettie has now left college and has gone to Ciren. Just looking foreward to meeting sum of her fit friends! lol! Right I need sleep cant believe its 2.50! Time flies hey! |
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[May. 10th, 2005|12:28 am] |
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| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | The Crystal Method - Name of the game | ] |
Dam myself for not updating this more often! Grrr! Ok I will be good from now on I promise hehe! Well lets see....not much to tell really I dont think. Oh I got my ears pierced again and have dyed my hair plum! lol! Oh and Lil is no longer blonde after I dyed her hair on Sunday of this week. Its now like a redy/brown auburn colour but it looks sooo good. The upper college society dinner was really good at the weekend as well. Sophie Harrison proceeded to embarras herslef by getting really stupidly drunk and silly on a bout 2 glasses of wine! But other than that it was really good. Um.....I cant really think of anything else to be honest. Oh I got entered into the Oxbridge list to do English and have been put forward to join NAGTY (National Academy for Gifter and Talented Youth) which is cool cos I can put it on my UCAS form. And I have got the bass music for quite a lot of the pieces for JIG next year cos I'm hoping to do that. I won the Lower Sixth Spanish prize...which reminds me I have to hand that list of books in. Ummmmm I"M GOING TO SCOTLAND! Yayness! I cant wait. Going up at half term with mum and looking round Glasgow, Edinburgh and Newcastle! Its going to be sooo much fun cos I get to see Ali, Ali, Rua, Nellie and maybe Kat if she feels up to it. What else....I have the drama dinner this weekend and I have the Sussex meeting at Bisley on the same day which could be really exciting trying to get back in time to get changed into my DRESS for the dinner! I am going as Tamora or Portia cos we have to go as a Shakespeare character. lol! Could be a good laugh. I dont think there is really anything else other than I had my interview about being a prefect and she asked me whether I could CONFORM enough! I hate that word sooooo much! *yuck* anyways I have a history mock tomorrow so I better go and do some work for that. Joy of Joys! :P |
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| Mammoth Month! |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|12:31 pm] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | groggy | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | Drowing Pool- All over me | ] |
And she's done it again, she has managed to not right anything for over a month! Not quite sure how the hell that happened but never mind hey! Ok so the end of term came and went and I was at home for like the first week and a half not really doing very much work like I should have been doing but never mind! Then all the excitement started to happen. Kate came to cheltenham cos we were getting the bus the next day to London to stay with Ed and Alex which I was really nervous about. Anyway we ended up in town with Katie Mai and then met Ginger and then met Al and then met Dan! lol! He is still seriously hot and I still cant believe that I fancy him after like three months or sumthing stupid. Then we got the bus to London and nearly got stuck at Victoria tube station as we could not get any change! lol! But it was all cool and when we got there we met the boys at the sattion who walked and picked us up cos they dont live very far away, but thing was is that I was so nervous about seeing Ed again that when a car came round the corner I said to Kate "ohhh look its them" when I realised that it was a car with three girls in it I felt like a bit of a fool! lol! The first 10 mins or sumthing was a bit awkward but other than that it was cool. We just chilled at there house till the monday night when we went back home. The weekend had been really cool and we finally met the infamous Sandy who is a really nice guy and who'd dad came to college so that was a bit wierd. It also opened up a lot of old wounds with Ed though. It was just like being back on the ship and I dont half miss him. It was just so nice to be lying currled up in his arms again that it was a bit of shock having to come home and realising it might be another 5 months till I see him again though when he moves to Oxford which is going to be cool but wierd and I may have bad things a bit difficult for myself last night after getting really drunk at social last night which I always say I am not going to go to again cos it is crap and each time I go and its crap and I come back all sad and upset cos I realise that I have no firends at college any more. Without Ginger, George, Jack, and now Lettie is leaving as well cos her parents can't afford it its just going to be me and Lil! Anyway so I rang him when I came back and then ended up hanging up on him :( I also rang Dan though and I had sent him a drunken text telling him that I still liked him but he didnt mention it. He's working today and I should be going up to see him but I have no one to go to lunch with which is all kind of related with me having no friends. I also dont really feel like eating to be honest after having thrown up 5 times last night at half hour intervals. :S talk about groggyness! Yeah oh and I had broken up with Miles by this point as well. He found out through Jack that I had pulled Brett which was such a stupid drunken thing to do but anyways we broke up on the terms that we are hardly ever going to see each other and that generally I am just a shit girlfriend! lol! He deserves some one a lot better than me, and the last time I spoke to him was only for about two mins. He seemed really distracted and said he was at a girl called Becky's house so I dont know if there is something going on there or what. Not heard from him since. But anyway back to the holidays so after London I had a couple of days to finish packing for college, Spain and Bisley and then went to Spain which I was really worried about but there was really no need to be because I ended up having and amazing time there with my family, Victor and the people from my school. There was a bit of a saga with Victor though because I had asked Maria if I could saty at her house again and she had said that she wasn't going to be there which I thought was fair enough but then found out one night when I was with Victor that her mother really wanted me to stay at the house but Maria was very jealous of me for sum strange reason and didnt want Victor to see me and if he did she would dump him. Anyways she saw some messages from me on his fone and they had a big fight which Victor told me about that night! lol! Then on the Thursday we met up at 10.30 and stayed out till 2.00 just chatting on a window sill outside a bank! lol! It was so cool and creepy though cos the fountain on the roundabout went off and it was totally silent! I think its the quitest I have ever heard (or not!) anything! Anyway that night Victor (or Vicky as Rob and Jamie had lovingly nicknamed him) dropped the bomb shell and told me that he thought he loved me! It was very hard trying to explain in Spanish that I didn;t quite feell the same way and would prefer it if we stayed friends because it would be really hard for me when he was in Spain and I was in England and that I didnt want the same thing to happen with him and me that had happened with him and Marial. On the Saturday morning though I made him come to the school before I got on the bus so that I could give him a ring I had bought that was quite similar to one of mine and a letter I had written saying thank you for everything. Then came four days shooting at Bisley and getting up at 7 each morning was not too much of a shock seeing as I had been getting up at 8 each morning to go and get the bus in Spain to be at the school by 9!! It was quite interesting using the same rifles again apart from me and tom are now using 0805 not 0894 which replaced 2757 which was Angus who blew up! lol! and 0894 which was Joe was taken by Bruce, or the social services and now we have baby Jamie! lol! Unfortunately the scores I was getting were quite low which is disappointing and frustrating. But after that it was sraight back to school the same night and I had to try and sort all my stuff out which took a while. Mum went and got a chinese though and we ate it sitting on the floor in my room using my trunk as a table. A bit different to the conversation I had with my parents at the begginning of the holiday around the kitchen table at home which was more of a screaming match between me and my dad about how he thought that I was going off the rails and getting mixed up in the wrong crowd after being busted for smoking at the end of last term, It was so bad and horrible. But then things sorted themselves out even though I still dont think he can accept the personI am and always will be and by stiffling my individuallity it is only making things within me more and more agressive and making me handle it the only way I know how. But now he is back at work and we are all playing happy families again. Question is how long for, probably till I fail my AS levels if I dont go and do some work now! I have my history coursework exam on Tuesday and then am singing at Windsor on Wednesday so better get my head down. |
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| Can anyone tell how bored I was today? :P |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|03:24 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | The Rasmus - Liquid | ] |
BLACK
??Which colour of Death is yours??
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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You are a spring. You are very mellow most of the
time except for the caffine season (which is
year round) but you are also a very nice
person. When people tick you off though God
better save them. lol You are a fairly
socialable person because people know you won't
get mad too easy or seem to. But you are a very
nice peron over all. ^-^
What Season Best Fits You? (anime pics)
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You hide behind The Anger Mask. you like to show
people that you are strong and make them fear
you, cuz you think this way you got everything
under control you hate to show your emotions,
you think that makes you weak, you don't like
any one to argue with you, judge you or
criticize you, you are totally convinced that
your decisions are always right, you probably
like politics, some people might say you are
selfish, but you don't agree with them "by
the way i'm not judging you so don't hate
me".
What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You are 'Gregg shorthand'. Originally designed to
enable people to write faster, it is also very
useful for writing things which one does not
want other people to read, inasmuch as almost
no one knows shorthand any more.
You know how important it is to do things
efficiently and on time. You also value your
privacy, and (unlike some people) you do not
pretend to be friends with just everyone; that
would be ridiculous. When you do make friends,
you take them seriously, and faithfully keep
what they confide in you to yourself.
Unfortunately, the work which you do (which is
very important, of course) sometimes keeps you
away from social activities, and you are often
lonely. Your problem is that Gregg shorthand
has been obsolete for a long time.
What obsolete skill are you?
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E:Your Beauty lies
in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little
black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a
point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a
very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in
wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and
enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night
to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be
rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you
probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but
concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have
and enjoy keeping people in wonder.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression:
Sly Smile
Gemstone:
Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black Eye Color:
Garnet
Quote:
"In the shadows for all time."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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| WE BREAK UP TOMORROW!!!!! |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|08:28 am] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | BBC 6 music | ] |
You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infornt of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.BBut little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.
If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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| CCF and Missed Calls |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|02:45 pm] |
| [ | My emotional mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | Soothing the savage beast is |
| | BBC 6 music | ] |
I cant believe I managed to get through yesterday! We had the CCF biannual inspection and after all that has been going on this week it was the last thing that I really wanted to do. So I was trying my best to see if I could get out of it but it was all looking extemely bleak as Mr.Cox had not spoken to the Adg and so I couln't spend the day in the range. Anyways, I nearly burst into tears in front of him cos I was dreading doing that in front of my group. But I had to stay with them, although he did say to Miss Allen that if there was anything I really felt I didn't have the energy to do I didn't have to do it. See the thing is, is that this whole thing with Jack has messed me all up, not just my emotions but I can't sleep or eat either so was already feeling really drained before the day started. Luckily Joe was the group leader and he is such a sweetie and the day actually turned out to be the best thing for me I think. The morning was quite easy. We had camp craft, then observation, then the assult course which I opted out of doing and so sat and waited in the sports hall waiting for the swimming challenge which again I didn't do because of various things, such as cuts and the lack of a swimming costume! lol! Then we had the kit cars which was really good because we had an advantage seeing as I knew how to put them together becuase of the Challenge Cup competition. We got a really good time on that I think. Then we had a break and I had to get changed for the Guard of Honour which went quite quickly. It was quite scary talking to the Second Sea Lord though. His merchant vessel is the H.M.S Victory which was Nelson's flag ship or something like that so he was a bit important! lol! Then I had to go and get changed again after lunch and do the gun run, then shooting, then the helicoptor flight which was ace because we flew over my house! (well the roundabout near it! It all looks so different from up there that it was really hard to see!) Then the last activity was the watermanship task on the lake but becuase we were running out of time the guy in charge told us to stop and said that he would add about 2 mins on to our time because we were obviously going to finish it! lol! It was lucky he did that because it was never going to be a good time otherwise! Anyway then we had the presentation and I really didn't think we stood a chance as we had not done amazing at anything but had done ok at everything. Anyway Lucy's group came third (suprise suprise! She just had to win a medal didn't she!) Then my group came 2nd which was so like the best place to come because it means your not too keen but just keen enough and still managed to have a good day whereas Robbie's team who won all looked pissed off and nakered! Then all the fun and games started. Whilst the 4th and 5th form helped to clean up the L6th had to report to the dinig hall ready for the evenings jolly occasions. I think the picture of me and Lucy just has to be posted for everyone eles sheer entertainment! We arrived there at 6 and then we left the dining hall at 11.30! It was such a long evening. Me and Lucy were serving top table as well! Lucy dropped a knife in some big wigs lap which was quite funny. Thank god I didnt drop anything is all I can say. But it was an amazing evening with the band. These two guys did a comedy sketch with a xylophone and as they got quicker and quicker they turned the smoke machine on underneath! lol! Very clever. Then this guy stood on a chair and was plyaing the trumpet, then got a rubber tube with a mouth piece and a funnel on the other end and stated swinging it round whilst playing the same tune! was very funny. Then the Royal Marines came as a suprise to all of us! Was very intimidated when they were walking towards me as we had a wall behind us and couldn't walk any further back! lol! Was so tired when I got back to the house. I looked at my phone though and found out I had 33 missed calls, 3 texts and 3 answer fone messages! lol! 21 from Jack, 8 from no number, 2 from Kate and one from some one else I cant remember who. I really cant be doing with Jack. Its making it so hard thinking about him and the situation. I just have to try and block him out for a while whilst he sorts himself out. But today was the first day thjat I actually felt rather normal which was nice, well it was until a lovely lady at the medical centre kindly stuck two needles in my arm for my hep A and hep B jabs! lol! Right well I think that's all for now. Please enjoy the comedy value of the photo below! :P
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